Monday, November 7, 2011
An Evening On the Water
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
An exercise for school "A bad thing for a good reason"
My foot nudges the accelerator even closer to the floor, the indicator creeping higher on the speedometer. She sits there in the passenger seat next to me, almost lifeless, in audible pain. The distance between the cars behind us increases. We had planned a home birth, but something has gone wrong. A wall of cars greets us up ahead. I am no doctor and this situation is entirely foreign to me. As the car ahead of me nears, some of our speed subsides, but I attempt to force the car ahead into submission. Her lack of movement intensifies my worries. The cars around me don’t want to give. I delicately stroke her hair, giving some comfort, but with anxiety I quickly remove my hand, not wanting to cause more pain. Finding a small gap in between the car in front and the left of me, I force my way into the space producing several honks and accelerate closer to the hospital. She twitches and my awareness pulsates. More cars block my path.
“What can I do? What can I do?”
Silence.
Why can’t I will the cars to move? If only I had a siren.
Her breathing slows, but not in a good way.
“Only two more exits,” I tell myself. She seems far away, an escape from the pain.
Inches away from meeting another car, I squeeze my way into another lane, more honks.
I don’t know which scares me more, her slowed breathing or her separation.
One more exit and more honks. I attempt to stroke her hair again, in hopes of regaining some connection. I see my exit on the opposite side of the freeway and cross several lanes.
“I gotta get her to the hospital,” I yell at no one in particular. They can’t hear me, but it gives me some comfort.
“We’re almost there, Minnie,” I reassure her.
With a sharp turn, I drift into the parking lot, slam on the breaks, throw the gear into park, scoop up Minnie, and dash into the hospital, walking past a sign, “Greenwood Animal Hospital.”
The doctor is waiting to deliver each of Minnie’s precious pinkies.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Lost in a Dream
The wind whistles past my ears. The breeze cools my moist face. Like a bullet, I glide through the air. The world surrounds me on all sides. Buildings and skyscrapers rise and fall as they clutter the ground below. The sensation of flying tightens my stomach. Adrenaline surges through my euphoric veins. Weaving around the buildings, exhilaration fills my lungs.
Placing my hands at my sides, I accelerate my speed. The adrenaline flows faster and my stomach squeezes tighter. I climb higher, rising above civilization. A chill tickles my skin and burns my core. As the icy numbness spreads through my body, I slow my speed and plummet back to the Earth.
A light pierces my closed eyelids. I blink away the sleep and confusion. I am motionless in my bed. The feeling of flying evaporates away, but the sensation of falling still lingers. A memory of movement lulling me to sleep, surfaces from the confusion.
Where am I? The thought swirls through my awakening reverie. Familiar images and sounds dance through the room. My fingers entwine in the sheets until the feeling of falling subsides. I am once again aware of the flying sensation.
I shove the blankets away in hopes of reclaiming my senses. I slide my feet and let them dangle toward the floor. Slowly, ever so slowly I lift my head upright. No dizziness clutters my brain. No spots flicker around my eyes.
Why am I still moving? Clarity escapes my grasp. Wisps of ideas begin to form. Below the soft, plush carpet, my feet are aware of a hard, steel floor. The window on the wall beacons me.
As I lean out the window, a steep hill fades away into the scenery. A loud, familiar Choo Choo echoes through the air, piercing the depths of reality.
Missing (unedited)
“Where are they?” I grumble to myself? I am getting more and more frustrated the more I look. I have searched the table by the front door, the shelf in the living room, even the couch. My house in a mess and I am still not closer to finding them. Why can’t I leave them in the same place every time I get home? I scold myself. The couch cushions are littered across the floor. The contents of the book shelf are strewn on top. It is 6:30 in the morning and I am going to be late. They are not here. I know they are not. I have looked everywhere. At least I think I have.
“The car! Maybe they are in the car!” Triumphantly I grab my car keys and rush out the door. I press the unlock button and swing open the door. I reach my hand into the crease of the seat. Nothing. I try the side of the seats…both of them. Nothing. “This is infuriating!” If anyone was around to hear me speak I am certain my words would be unintelligible. Oh well. I check the back seat, maybe they fell behind my seat. Nope, wrong again. Maybe by some obscure miracle they are in the trunk. I slam the door to my car and yank open the hatch. Blankets, books, and papers adorn the back of my car. Of course this is disorganized too. I curse myself for this disheveled state. Why, why, why? I throw things here and there. I am barely looking, but the chance of them actually being in the back of my car is minimal.
I glance down at my watch. Another five minutes wasted. Hanging my head in shame, I accept defeat. If I am late I will lose my job. I am going to lose my job anyway. I might as well face the music.
I lift the hand to the door and slide into my car. I’m not as hurried as I was before. I’m not in a hurry to die. Okay maybe death is a little extreme…I hope it’s a little extreme.
Traffic isn’t horrible so I manage to get to work with a little time to spare.
“My office!” I hold onto the last thread of hope that I might have.
In minute the papers, pens, paper clips and other office paraphernalia are all over my floor. I am going to regret this later whatever the outcome. But I just keep telling myself: if there is any hope of saving my job, it’s worth any repercussions that might ensue. I pull out the last drawer and quickly flip it upside down. Files fill the room. As they float to the floor, I hear a silent, almost inaudible ping as they hit the floor. I release the drawer from my hand and my knees hit the floor. The mess clouds my vision and I am reduced to the limitation of just my sense of touch. Frantically, my hands glide across the floor.
“Hazzah!” I say. Oh I hope no one heard that.
In moments, I am on my feet and rushing out of my office. I race down the hallway to the elevator. The doors are closing, but I manage to squeeze through to safety. The time ticks by as I am slowly whisked to the bottom floor.
“Ten, nine, eight...”
“Seriously?” I sigh. Things are so much more difficult when haunted by an audible reminder of an impending doom.
I hesitate only for a moment and urgently find the slot. In it I place my recovered key and turn it anxiously.
“Launch sequence, aborted,” the voice congratulates me. I just hope I get to keep my job.